|Art Journal collage, 8 x 8 inches|
Jane Davies' online class starts today. I've printed out Lesson 1 and will watch the video later this morning.
I decided to do this class differently than how I did her other two online classes. I decided not to participate in the class blog in any way, other than to get the lessons. In other words, to work in isolation.
My reasons for this are several...
I know myself. I know that if I look at everybody else's work, then I'll compare mine to theirs. I'll ooh and ahh over some of the others' work, and I'll diss my own. I'll wish I were doing their work instead of my own work. I know that this will put me under a lot of unnecessary stress.
I also no longer want feedback from the instructor. Not because I don't want to be good, or better, at painting. But because it's all so subjective, isn't it? Who's to say when a piece is finished or whether it's "good"? Isn't that up to the artist, ultimately? It isn't important to me anymore whether my work could be "stronger," or make "more of a statement." What's important is to enjoy the process, and to make my own decision about the outcome.
Additionally, I simply can't do the "group mind" thing anymore. Everybody chiming in on everybody else's work, everybody looking for approval or acknowledgement. And I certainly don't want to be internally tooting my own horn when I think I've done a lesson better than the next person. Nor do I feel the need to puff myself up by way of introduction. None of this matters to me now. I just want to do the lessons, or not, and enjoy my life without added stress of any kind.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.