Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Be Ready for Change

Acrylics on canvas board, 12x12 inches
This is the last piece I did for Layer Love 2.0 Lesson 6.  It's 12 x 12 inches on canvas panel.

I looked at an apartment yesterday in the low-income senior complex I've been on the waiting list for ~ but I passed up this opportunity.  At the present moment I am just not mentally/emotionally ready to move house.  But now that I've seen the place (the units are all the same or perhaps a reversed layout, 600 square feet, one bedroom), I've begun the process of loosening my psychic hold on Rose Cottage.  The next time I move, the next place I move into, will most likely be the last.  The concept of some kind of permanence (obviously, nothing is truly permanent), some place to be for the duration, feels like an enormous relief.  It's just that right now, today, I'm not ready to get my head around moving to the ostensibly last place I will ever live.

I'm still at the top of the wait list at the new place, and the next time they call, whenever that is (I've been on the list for three years), I'll be ready.  Just the fact of there being a viable and doable alternative to where I'm currently living has opened up a space of possibility for me, internally.

Last night I started mentally making a list of yet more stuff I still have but don't need.  And will begin divesting myself of it right away.  Just because my new place, whenever I move, will be twice the size I have now, doesn't mean I want to fill it with stuff that's no longer usable to me.  As it is, I'll need to buy again a few pieces of furniture that I sold or gave away five years ago, when I downsized to fit into Rose Cottage.  So be it.  My life has never been such that I could keep schlepping things forward with me, from one change to the next.  At some point I had to get rid of most of it to create room ~ a vacuum, if you will ~ for the next phase to show up in.  I'm not attached, at this point.

Have a great week.  Happy Spring!  xo

10 comments:

ileneharris said...

Love the color combinations of that particular shade of blue plus black. Read your information. About possible opportunities. Very interesting...

Jan said...

What a huge relief! And it's very cool you stay on the top of the list--I don't think that is way it's done here.

I know what you mean about the last place...
hugs!

Roberta Warshaw said...

Ah yes. The last place. I find the idea quite unnerving and exciting at the same time. I am still getting rid of stuff. All these books. Still selling them. It is amazing how much crap we accumulate.

Blue Sky Dreaming said...

I like to think I'm in my last place...but for the first time in a long time, I can see I might have to even make changes here. So grateful to wake up and go to sleep in my own quiet walls for now. Best of luck on this adventure.
Love the color!!!!

Maggi said...

A lovely colour combination. I do know what you mean about a last move. I've been considering downsizing as I know this place will eventually be too much for me to maintain but I'm not quite there yet. I think the fact that I'm paring down severely suggests to me that I am well on the way though.

Linda said...

Beautiful...lovely colours!

Charlton Stitcher said...

I wish you good luck in your decision. I don't know whether I am in my last place ... although I suspect not. I just know that right now I'm happy in where I am and it feels right. Until that changes, no great moves will be made - though it's funny that this spring I seem more than usually ready to clear things out and reduce the clutter so who knows?

Margaret Cooter said...

A mental list of things to let go of - that's a good idea, I'll start mine too. It will help with physically removing a few (other) things.

Judy Sall Fiber Art said...

Moving is always hard... hubby and I hope to stay where we are now for some time to come, but if anything happens to either of us, the time will have come to make the next move. I have so enjoyed our time here, but am realistic. Our problem will be doing a thorough weed out and disposal of a lot of things before making any future move, and I'm not looking forward to that. You are wise to have rid yourself of as much as you have so far...

The Idaho Beauty said...

As one who has done it a lot, I can empathize with your feelings about moving at this point. But I am relieved to know that you have an option when you are ready for it. A bigger place where you can literally breath easier sounds like a perfect reward for the last place you think you will move into. I agree, just because you will have more square feet does not mean you need to fill every inch of it. Glad you are not feeling pressured but are giving yourself time to get used to the idea.