Wednesday, June 6, 2012
About that weekly challenge I was doing, I've lost the inspiration to keep at it so it will be on hiatus until sometime later. My energy really has drifted away from quilting -- although I have a stack of fabrics selected for Fiberactions' next challenge (reveal July 15), so perhaps that will get me back into my quilting groove.
It is with some amount of guilt that I realize, yet again, that pretty much once I hit my stride with a particular medium, I begin to drift to something else. I've talked about aspects of this in earlier posts, so it might sound familiar. The guilt, I think, is because I invest so much of myself into something -- read: so much money, so little of which I have to begin with -- that I feel as though I haven't gotten my money's worth out of that investment before moving on.
I realize that this is just life. That there's really no way to measure intrinsic value. And that the money-for-art-supplies-and-tools conversation isn't justified when one is responding to one's soul, one's muse. Still, I'm just sayin'...
Last summer ecodyeing was my big project. I still want/hope to do more, but haven't devoted any energy to it recently. I have a big stack of beautiful ecodyed fabric, some of which I've used in quilts, some of which I've sold. I have far more rusted things than I'll ever use, things that I accumulated through the end of last year that I'll probably end up giving away next time I move...like so many other art things from past infatuations.
Obviously I'm still not comfortable with the fact that my artistic interests and desires shift so often. I'm repeatedly left with a residue of incompletion. I see this factor operating in other aspects of my life as well -- it's hard to make a clean break with a clear conscience. I'm always wondering whether I could have done more...
But then life intervenes.